NF

August 26, 2019 Leave a comment

I’m not really into rap music but lately, one artist rose to my top 10 overall just within weeks. That rapper is NF. This is the kind of rapper I’ve been looking for. No cussing or any senseless lyrical content rapping about money, sex, violence, cars, and drugs. Just keeping things real. Real life, real music. These are some of the best lyrics I’ve ever heard in my life. Deep and meaningful is an understatement. Most importantly though, he speaks TRUTH! The best thing about NF’s music is that ANYONE can relate to it. And if you’re someone who claims you don’t, you’re a liar. I’ll highlight some of the ones that really stand out to me.

“Broken legs but I chase perfection,  These walls are my blank expression,  My mind is a home I’m trapped in,  And it’s lonely inside this mansion”

“And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs,  That’s where I write when I’m in a bad place and need to release,  And let out the version of NF you don’t want to see”

“Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain,  See my problem is I don’t fix things I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happened,  Say I wish I could change. Are you confused? Come upstairs and I’ll show you what I mean,  This room’s full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems,  The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave,  I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things,  But it’s hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep”

“And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside,  So I just leave my doors locked,  You might get other doors to open up but this doors not,  ‘Cause I don’t want you to have the opportunity to hurt me,  And I’ll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me”

“Look at the world we live in, defined by comment sections, Surround yourself with people that challenge how you think, Not people that nod their head and act like they agree, Those people will cut you open just to watch you bleed, Always be yourself, not the person that you pretend to be, no!”

“Yeah, don’t take opinions from people that won’t listen to yours, If money’s where you find happiness, you’ll always be poor, If you don’t like the job you have, then what do you do it for? The cure to pain isn’t something you buy at liquor stores, nah The real you is not defined by the size of your office, The real you is who you are when ain’t nobody watchin’, You spend your whole life worried about what’s in your wallet, For what? That money won’t show up in your coffin, woo!”

“Don’t believe what you believe just ’cause that’s how they raised you, Think your own thoughts, don’t let them do it for you”

“I don’t like to be wrong, which I know you relate to, And I know I make you feel like you’re at the end of your rope, That’s when I look at you and tell you I’d be better alone, Just the pride talkin’, isn’t it? ‘Cause both of us know”

“Yeah, way before I bought you the ring, We were fighting back and forth like you were wearin’ the thing, Two passionate people not afraid to say what they think, Lead to passionate conversation when it’s hard to agree, You know me well, sittin’ on the edge of my seat, Lookin’ at life, overanalyzin’ everything, Always depressed, tryna find a better version of me, Searching for somethin’ I know’s prolly right in front of my feet, Stubborn as me? Maybe not, but you’re close to it, Got a lot of issues, I’m tryin’ to work through ’em, Going to therapy for you’s somethin’ that’s worth doin’, When I know you been there for me through all of my worst moments, And I know it hurts knowing that I carry this weight on my chest, Making it difficult for me to open up and connect, Lot of regrets, I apologize for all of the stress, That’s not what I meant to do, you know I love you to death”

“Yo, I don’t know what it’s like to be addicted to pills, But I do know what it’s like to be a witness it kills”

“I don’t get it mom, don’t you want to watch your babies grow? I guess that pills are more important, all you have to say is no! But you won’t do it will you? You gon’ keep popping ’til those pills kill you, I know you gone but I can still feel you”

“I got this picture in my room and it kills me, But I don’t need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing, Now a relationship is something we won’t ever have, Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?”

“That I was nothing but a kid who couldn’t understand, I ain’t gon’ say that I forgive you cause it hasn’t happened, I thought that maybe I feel better as time passes, If you really cared for me, then where you at then?”

“It took everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral, Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful, I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you, All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you”

“Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it’s hard when I hate myself”

“All the core beliefs, And every mornin’ I wake up and feel like I am not worth it ’cause I’m at war with peace, I go to Hell, walk up to the corpse of me, Look at the body like, “You ain’t nothin’ but poor and weak”

“Yeah, late nights get the best of me, They know how to get to me, Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me, But I don’t wanna die, I just wanna get relief”

“Come across like it’s so easy, But I feel like you don’t need me, When I feel like you don’t need me, Then I feel like you don’t see me, And my life has no meaning, drain me Hands out, tryna ask for love, But when I get it, I just pass it up, Throw it away and think about it later, Diggin’ through the trash for drugs, Wish I could give you what you needed, but I can’t I’m scared because”

“Get lost in the questions I can’t answer, Can’t stand who I am, but it don’t matter, We scream to be free, but I stay captured, Knee-deep in defeat of my own actions, Feel weak, but the peace that I keep lacking, Keeps speakin’ to me, but I can’t have it”

“I could go to college, get in debt like everybody else, Graduate and prolly get a job that doesn’t pay the bills ,That don’t make a lot of sense to me, forget the Happy Meals I don’t like the dollar menu, I would rather make a meal”

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Deity of Christ (Tract)

May 20, 2019 Leave a comment

Acts 17 Apologetics

Where Did Jesus Say, “I Am God, Worship Me”?

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In My Weakness…

March 31, 2019 Leave a comment

Dear Father,

I come to you today feeling so weak and helpless. There are many thing on my plate, so many worries, so many uncertainties, so many things that I just can’t do. Every time I think about what lies ahead for me, I feel overwhelmed. When I consider carrying this burden for days on end, I feel like I just might drown. Everything seems impossible.

You said to come to you with my burdens. The Bible says you are our “Rock” and our “Fortress.” You are all knowing and all powerful. You know the burdens that I bear. You are not surprised by them. In fact, you’ve allowed them into my life. I may not know the purpose for them, but I do know that I can trust your goodness. You are always faithful to do what is best for me. You care most about my holiness, even above my immediate happiness. I ask that you remove this burden from me, take away my weakness, but ultimately, I desire most of all that your will be done.

I confess that I hate this weakness in me. I don’t like not knowing what to do. I don’t like being incapable and insufficient. Forgive me for wanting to be sufficient in myself. Forgive me for wanting to be in control. Forgive me for complaining and grumbling. Forgive me for doubting your love for me. And forgive me for not being willing to trust and rely on you and your grace.

When I look into the future and see my weakness, help me to trust you. May I, like Paul, embrace my weakness so that you can be my strength. May you work through my weakness to change me. May I glorify you in my weakness, looking away from myself and to the wonders of your amazing love through Christ.

Grant me gospel joy, even in the midst of this struggle. It’s because of Jesus and through Jesus that I can pray, Amen.

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Your Name’s Makoto Shinkai announces new anime film, reveals title, plot details, release date

December 14, 2018 Leave a comment

SoraNews24 -Japan News-

Director reveals he got the initial idea for Weathering with You before Your Name was released, is aiming to make a “massively entertaining” movie.

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Muhammad’s Child Bride (Tract)

December 6, 2018 Leave a comment
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movie review: Creed 2

November 24, 2018 Leave a comment

 

Fans from the first movie had a silly prediction that Creed would fight Ivan Drago’s son, and I thought… nah this franchise is too smart for that. And when that first trailer came out, boy was I wrong. But I had wanted to see it anyways. First initial impressions are positive. However, this is nowhere near as stellar as the first one. I was a little annoyed with Adonis due to this stubborn pride. The motivation was a bit weak in the end. Rocky on the other hand was more likable than ever. It’s nice we get a resolution with him near the end. There was potential for the Dragos to be a bit more fleshed out but it didn’t mount to anything other than typical villain reasoning, but at least it was better than Rocky IV. Music wasn’t as strong as the first one but the memorable tunes are still there, just not the preferred arrangements. Fights were nicely done though, and so is the training montage. Overall, it’s worth the watch.

Rating: 7.5/10

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Fights to Remember

May 6, 2018 Leave a comment

If you have not seen Fate Apocrypha, there will be spoilers obviously unless if you don’t care. Otherwise enjoy these amazing fight scenes. Certainly not the best Fate show but without a doubt the most entertaining one.

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